dreams

I had a dream, a very vivid dream that felt so real that I had to convince myself of a truth that felt like a lie. I woke up and had to remember that the reality that I was feeling is not the same reality that I was awake in. I felt like I had had this dream before although this is only in retrospect.. Even now I am still left with the nagging feelings from that state. Upset about a situation that never really took place. A feeling of love for a person that does not exist.

I now I am dealing with a feeling of loss, lost relationships I had made with myself.. for they must be parts of me, parts that I love and parts that I hate. The parts that run and the part that choose to stay.

I am not so sure what to make of it. It scares me